I don't want to be a Christian.

When I first became a Christian, and even a month ago, I didn't understand why people said "I don't want to be a Christian because Christians are hypocrites." I was like, "Wah!? I'm not a hypocrite!" And I didn't see any of my friends being "hypocrites" or whatever these heathens were calling us! But lately, it's become more than obvious how hypocritical we can be. Even things as seemingly small as white lies can cause a person to see a Christian as nothing more than a self-righteous pagan. Trust is a huge part of a relationship, and when that trust is broken, what else is there? How can you tell someone one minute a lie and the next say you'll pray for them? No wonder lost souls don't want to be what we call "Christians." They're no different. What happened to this "change" we were supposed to see when we became new creatures in Christ? What happened to the truth and the love and the compassion that comes from knowing Jesus and persuing a relationship with Him? It sickens me to think that the lost people of the world are suffering because of a mishapen image of what it means to be a Christ follower. People think the problem with Christians is that we aren't telling enough people about Christ. I think the problem is that we don't truly know Christ ourselves.

This is random and blunt like many of my posts have been lately. Take it like you want.