Humbled

Have you ever heard anyone ever say "I'm so strong in my faith. I know nothing will ever make me stumble!" I mean, that's a great attitude... or, so I thought. I used to think like that. No matter what, I would always be a light for God; always an encouragement. And it's not that I'm not anymore, but God has definitely humbled me over the past 3 months.
As I said before, God removed me from my Christian bubble. And a series of random events definitely showed me that I still needed my good Christian influences in my life. Things change, and that's great. But I was bad at coping with the change. I got involved with a few friends that I should not have been involved in. Was I doing anything wrong? No. But I wasn't doing anything right either. I stopped praying. I stopped reading my Bible. I stopped caring. School, work, my family, "friends," and other responsibilities left no room for any of that. Ridiculous excuse, I know. But let's be real. I was completely broken. Nothing made sense. People let me down. I didn't have time to breathe.
Recently, things have changed. I do not surround myself with bad influences. If you have nothing but rude words to say to me, I say kind ones back - but you no longer have a significant place in my life. My outlook is much different now because of the trials I've gone through lately. I am thankful for every mistake I made. I am thankful for how broken I became. I am thankful for every true friend that has not condemned me, but has stuck by me no matter what.

So if your outlook is "I'm so strong in my faith, nothing can change that" - watch out. You will be humbled and it will be difficult. You're never too strong to be broken.

A Series of Fortunate Events

So here are some things I've learned first-hand the past couple of months:

Sometimes God allows us to hurt so that we can grow. Sometimes God allows us to hurt others so that we can grow. People can do a complete 180 in 5 seconds flat. People will lie to you, a lot. Girls that thrive on drama travel in packs. Boys aren't worth it (referring to that drama) and neither are girls. Horses love you no matter what. Sometimes the people you feel most connected with will be the people who constantly let you down. Families will always be families, no matter how strong the bond is. People who are basically strangers can be best friends at heart. Great Value toaster pastries do not taste like pop-tarts. It takes almost losing someone to realize how much they meant to you in the first place. When friends change, it almost always causes you to do the same. God will always be whispering in your ear. Old friends can become new friends. Opposites really do attract. Boys that work at grocery stores will treat you like the items they bag. After the 4th chance, it's time to stop. It is possible to be jaded. The earth is magnetic. When you have no friends left, you'll always have me. When I have no friends left, I'll always have God.