I don't want to be a Christian.

When I first became a Christian, and even a month ago, I didn't understand why people said "I don't want to be a Christian because Christians are hypocrites." I was like, "Wah!? I'm not a hypocrite!" And I didn't see any of my friends being "hypocrites" or whatever these heathens were calling us! But lately, it's become more than obvious how hypocritical we can be. Even things as seemingly small as white lies can cause a person to see a Christian as nothing more than a self-righteous pagan. Trust is a huge part of a relationship, and when that trust is broken, what else is there? How can you tell someone one minute a lie and the next say you'll pray for them? No wonder lost souls don't want to be what we call "Christians." They're no different. What happened to this "change" we were supposed to see when we became new creatures in Christ? What happened to the truth and the love and the compassion that comes from knowing Jesus and persuing a relationship with Him? It sickens me to think that the lost people of the world are suffering because of a mishapen image of what it means to be a Christ follower. People think the problem with Christians is that we aren't telling enough people about Christ. I think the problem is that we don't truly know Christ ourselves.

This is random and blunt like many of my posts have been lately. Take it like you want.

I ain't Jesus.

This past weekend was Judgment House at my church Emmanuel Baptist. So pastor Gary thought it would be nice if one of the guys from the JH team, Jeff Huey, got to preach on Sunday morning. Jeff spoke about spiritual warfare and how it impacts Christians and non-Christians, but one seemingly random story he told meant more to me than the entire message combined.

Jeff: "One day a guy asked me to take a job preaching down at a church in Alabama. I told him I'd love to cause I really wanted a job in a church. Then he said that he'd love to have me on the team for at least 5 years, and he wanted to know if I'd agree to that. I told him no because I ain't Jesus and Jesus is the only one who knows what God wants. God could call me into one area of ministry one day and then want me somewhere else the next. We need to stop planning out lives and just listen to where God wants us to go."

YES! AH, I'm so glad someone put it into words for me... and I'm so glad I can relate to someone. There's been an issue of commitment in some of the areas of ministry I was once involved in. Some people have asked me, "Well, how can you just stop leading in that area when you committed to it?" Well... I stopped because that's what I felt God wanted. And it would have been wrong of me to tell God "No, actually... I committed to this.. so I'm going to ignore what You're telling me and do what I think is right." I mean, God wanted me there for a reason and for a season. Who am I to tell Him that He's doing something wrong?

And that story didn't only impact me in that area - I've realized that we have to do that in general with our lives. Sure, it's nice to have a plan. But we cannot ever 100% commit to something (except I guess marriage) because God could have something different for us. And when our plans change and we get to where God wants us, others shouldn't have anything but good things to say to and about us. After all, we're seeking God's will... not ours.

"Hooking up" with God.

So there was this girl that had this guy friend. And this particular guy friend would text her on the weekends wanting to do stuff and hang out, but during the week he would forget she existed. This went on for 4 weeks. The guy friend would beg for another chance, she'd give it to him, and then he'd go on about his business after they hung out. Every week he would ditch her. Every weekend she would give him another chance.


Let's just say God is the girl in this situation and we are the guy. Isn't that what we too often do to Him? On the weekend we realize Sunday's approaching so we start thinking more frequently about God. Then we come to the realization we've been putting Him off the week before; not even caring if we spend any time with Him. So, on Sunday we fall back in love with the God who loves us unconditionally.
Then the week begins and we slowly push Him away, just like every other week. Until the next weekend comes along and we again realize that He is what we're yearning for.


I don't know the remedy to this problem. I just know that we need to be aware of it if we're guilty of doing it. I know I have been before and I will be again. I think that realizing it's a problem is the first step though. Allowing God to help us fix it is still to come.

Are you "hooking up" with God on the weekends, or do you have a passionate continuous relationship with Him?